Today, I'm starting my new beginning. I'm losing the only person whom I love dearly. Yes, he brought my half soul away with him, now that he's gone. I don't regret the time we had shared together. I feel like he's my other half, he just doesn't know it yet. But all I'm saying is that, I'm trying to accept the fact that we are no longer together. Sure, I would still be there whenever he needs me 'cause I love him. Yes, I do love him. I'm trying not to cry but I just couldn't help it. It's making me feel a LOT better. I would miss the times I was with him. I remembered when I told him that he broke my heart too much that I couldn't even stand it when he told me that he loved me. It's true. But then again, I hope that he's not making a wrong decision by breaking up. Just like a famous quote
Cinta tidak harus memiliki.
And note for the boy who had broke my heart sixth times: Hon, this would be the last time I write about you and this would be the last time I cry for you.
Basically, last night was great. After dealing with those busy times which I couldn't even have a 'me' time, last night I went to this gig. Since I haven't attend such things for like months, I kinda feel excited to go. Anyhow, there was one reason that made me go there actually. I needed to do an interview with this band called The Trees & The Wild. So I went to Java Pub with my bestie, Fira. We felt awkward, somehow, for a while before we could finally settle in.
The first band who played was The Modest. They were really great, like totally. And then followed with Bangkutaman and yes, they were amazing. I really enjoyed my time there. Took some pictures, talked with some people, joked around and stuffs. And finally, The Trees & The Wild started to get on stage. Well, I needed to wait until they finish so that I could interview them. Honestly, it was the first time I actually saw them live and geez... it was incredible :)
Finally, I could interview them and it went well, I guess. But the only thing that kinda upset me was the fact that the pictures that I took were just NOT good enough. Here's the thing, I was supposed to bring a photographer with me but, for some reason, it didn't happen. So, with all of my super clumsiness yet amateur skills of photography, I decided to take the pictures MYSELF. Yes, I should've realized that it was like a major MISTAKE. Anyhow, I tried my best though :)
Yet again, the other thing that kinda bother me was how my right foot doing. I actually couldn't walk normally 'cause my foot had been getting all weird these days but I kinda forced it to do it's job so... The next morning I woke up, which is today, I can't even WALK. Omg... I don't know what to do and now I'm sitting in my bed, listening to The Smiths and just staring at my foot. I hope there would be a miracle, maybe like The God of Feet would give me his forgiveness. I just wish that it would be better soon enough, like real soon.
Have you ever think that you might be the worst kid for your parents? I have. Have you ever regret the day that you born? I have. Have you ever wish to disappear from where you stand right now? I have. And I just keep thinking about it all the time. Yes, I do think that I'm the failure for the family. I do cry at nights when I feel that I don't belong to where I live in now. I hate when I just cause problems with no solutions. I never make my parents proud. Actually, I never make anyone proud. I'm a waste of time and I don't worth the waiting. I'm sorry if I had make lots of mistakes. I'm sorry if I ever hurt anyone. And I'm sorry if I couldn't be what everyone wants me to be.
So, here I am. Just a few hours 'till 2010. I'm feeling really happy 'cause I could still experience the wonderful things in 2009. There were many great and terrible things happened this year but it was all good. Anyway, today I went to Sai Wan Ho. I went to my old school, Korean International. It was great to see it again. So, I went there with my sisters and we took some pictures. I think I'm going to post it later. The weather was freezing like hell and unfortunately, I forgot to wear more jackets. Right now, I'm going to get ready for the new year's celebration. It's going to be fireworks on the ferry port. Some say that it would be the biggest fireworks ever. So, I'm feeling pretty excited about it. I don't know... I always feel excited about the new years. But then up until now, I still don't have my new year's revolution. Hmmm... maybe I'd try to be more mature and more responsible. And, I wish I could be more serious about my studies lolzie :)
Hmmm... so 2010 is just right in the corner. I really wish to be with the one I love. Well, I do now 'cause I'm celebrating it with my fams whom I do love. But I'm hoping for that 'special one' <33 I wish he would have a great new year's celebration, too. Love him alwayssss :) The thought of being with someone special on new year's eve just reminded me of the great new year's kiss. Lolz I wish I could have it. But ohwell... guess it wouldn't happen soon enough. Anyway, I think I have to get ready for the fireworks. Going to meet lots of people and just have funnn :) This is the last day of 2009 wohooooo!!! Hoping for a better 2010 to come. Enjoy our last night peeps.
Today my fam and I went to this department store called New World. We went looking for clothes and shoes and things like that. After that, my stepdad decided to buy a pair of shoes for my step niece, Samantha. The girl was only two years old and she was looking really cute. So we went to this shop for kids and all I could see was all of those colorful clothes and shoes. I was like aawwww... me want it!!! Well, I loveeee shoes and clothes and those things but I always loveeee to see the kids' clothes. I mean, they were all looking super duper pretty and cute yet still fashionable. Gosh... I really wish I could have a kid right now. I prefer a girl though, no offense :)But yeah, so I was really excited to find a pair of shoes for her. And there were so many shapes and colors and I just loved it there. Then finally, we found this perfect purple shoes and she just loved it.
That's not it. So yesterday, my sister and I went to Zara just to window shop. I was thinking maybe I was lucky enough to maybe find something cute but then unfortunately, Zara in Jakarta was just soo sooo soo much better. Yeah, really. Anywayyy, I was bored so we went to the Zara Kids' section. Ohmygod... I saw this red long coat for kids and I was like geez... too bad they don't have this one for the adult. And there were a lot of other things that made me go GAGA. Srsly :) I mean, how can you resist stuffs like these?
Today is actually eleventh day of holiday. So as you already know, I'm spending my holiday in Hong Kong. It's officially my fifth day here in HK. It's been great. But all I did was shopping all around the city. Okay, maybe not like that. So, it kinda made me feel super lazy to post anything here. Yes people, I am that lazy. Anyway, today I just went to H&M and Kimberley rd. I wanted to buy this one bag in H&M but I didn't. I realized that it didn't really worth the price. Yesterday was superrr crazy. I went to H&M for like a billion times and I kinda think that the security recognized my face. But then, I really realllyyy want to see my friends from junior high. I really miss them. Maybe I'll try to contact some of them later. Loveloveloveeee <3 Hmmmm the day before yesterday, my family and I went to Disneyland. It was funnnn :) Like, I really want to go there wohooo. And yes, I don't have anything else to write. Suckzz, I know =P Well, ttyl everyone. I hope you all do have a great holiday. Merry Christmas & Happy New Year.
So yeahh... it's 2 o'clock in morning and I'm still awake. Right now, I'm super tired and a bit sleepy but I don't want to go to sleep yet. WHY?? 'Cause dadadadada... lolzie. I'm in love with this late night chat, really. So my friend and I had been doing this late night chat for like three days now and it's just super fun, really. Hmmmm what else to write... Oh, so this holiday, I'm going to spend it in HK. Yes, funfunfun <3 style="font-style: italic;">go around a bit, do some shopping and probably sneaking around in my old school. Gosh... I really can't wait! It's only a day left and I'll be there wohoooooo :) Oh well, I'm going to continue my chat. TTYL!
Today, I'm starting my new beginning. I'm losing the only person whom I love dearly. Yes, he brought my half soul away with him, now that he's gone. I don't regret the time we had shared together. I feel like he's my other half, he just doesn't know it yet. But all I'm saying is that, I'm trying to accept the fact that we are no longer together. Sure, I would still be there whenever he needs me 'cause I love him. Yes, I do love him. I'm trying not to cry but I just couldn't help it. It's making me feel a LOT better. I would miss the times I was with him. I remembered when I told him that he broke my heart too much that I couldn't even stand it when he told me that he loved me. It's true. But then again, I hope that he's not making a wrong decision by breaking up. Just like a famous quote
Cinta tidak harus memiliki.
And note for the boy who had broke my heart sixth times: Hon, this would be the last time I write about you and this would be the last time I cry for you.
Basically, last night was great. After dealing with those busy times which I couldn't even have a 'me' time, last night I went to this gig. Since I haven't attend such things for like months, I kinda feel excited to go. Anyhow, there was one reason that made me go there actually. I needed to do an interview with this band called The Trees & The Wild. So I went to Java Pub with my bestie, Fira. We felt awkward, somehow, for a while before we could finally settle in.
The first band who played was The Modest. They were really great, like totally. And then followed with Bangkutaman and yes, they were amazing. I really enjoyed my time there. Took some pictures, talked with some people, joked around and stuffs. And finally, The Trees & The Wild started to get on stage. Well, I needed to wait until they finish so that I could interview them. Honestly, it was the first time I actually saw them live and geez... it was incredible :)
Finally, I could interview them and it went well, I guess. But the only thing that kinda upset me was the fact that the pictures that I took were just NOT good enough. Here's the thing, I was supposed to bring a photographer with me but, for some reason, it didn't happen. So, with all of my super clumsiness yet amateur skills of photography, I decided to take the pictures MYSELF. Yes, I should've realized that it was like a major MISTAKE. Anyhow, I tried my best though :)
Yet again, the other thing that kinda bother me was how my right foot doing. I actually couldn't walk normally 'cause my foot had been getting all weird these days but I kinda forced it to do it's job so... The next morning I woke up, which is today, I can't even WALK. Omg... I don't know what to do and now I'm sitting in my bed, listening to The Smiths and just staring at my foot. I hope there would be a miracle, maybe like The God of Feet would give me his forgiveness. I just wish that it would be better soon enough, like real soon.
Have you ever think that you might be the worst kid for your parents? I have. Have you ever regret the day that you born? I have. Have you ever wish to disappear from where you stand right now? I have. And I just keep thinking about it all the time. Yes, I do think that I'm the failure for the family. I do cry at nights when I feel that I don't belong to where I live in now. I hate when I just cause problems with no solutions. I never make my parents proud. Actually, I never make anyone proud. I'm a waste of time and I don't worth the waiting. I'm sorry if I had make lots of mistakes. I'm sorry if I ever hurt anyone. And I'm sorry if I couldn't be what everyone wants me to be.
So, here I am. Just a few hours 'till 2010. I'm feeling really happy 'cause I could still experience the wonderful things in 2009. There were many great and terrible things happened this year but it was all good. Anyway, today I went to Sai Wan Ho. I went to my old school, Korean International. It was great to see it again. So, I went there with my sisters and we took some pictures. I think I'm going to post it later. The weather was freezing like hell and unfortunately, I forgot to wear more jackets. Right now, I'm going to get ready for the new year's celebration. It's going to be fireworks on the ferry port. Some say that it would be the biggest fireworks ever. So, I'm feeling pretty excited about it. I don't know... I always feel excited about the new years. But then up until now, I still don't have my new year's revolution. Hmmm... maybe I'd try to be more mature and more responsible. And, I wish I could be more serious about my studies lolzie :)
Hmmm... so 2010 is just right in the corner. I really wish to be with the one I love. Well, I do now 'cause I'm celebrating it with my fams whom I do love. But I'm hoping for that 'special one' <33 I wish he would have a great new year's celebration, too. Love him alwayssss :) The thought of being with someone special on new year's eve just reminded me of the great new year's kiss. Lolz I wish I could have it. But ohwell... guess it wouldn't happen soon enough. Anyway, I think I have to get ready for the fireworks. Going to meet lots of people and just have funnn :) This is the last day of 2009 wohooooo!!! Hoping for a better 2010 to come. Enjoy our last night peeps.
Today my fam and I went to this department store called New World. We went looking for clothes and shoes and things like that. After that, my stepdad decided to buy a pair of shoes for my step niece, Samantha. The girl was only two years old and she was looking really cute. So we went to this shop for kids and all I could see was all of those colorful clothes and shoes. I was like aawwww... me want it!!! Well, I loveeee shoes and clothes and those things but I always loveeee to see the kids' clothes. I mean, they were all looking super duper pretty and cute yet still fashionable. Gosh... I really wish I could have a kid right now. I prefer a girl though, no offense :)But yeah, so I was really excited to find a pair of shoes for her. And there were so many shapes and colors and I just loved it there. Then finally, we found this perfect purple shoes and she just loved it.
That's not it. So yesterday, my sister and I went to Zara just to window shop. I was thinking maybe I was lucky enough to maybe find something cute but then unfortunately, Zara in Jakarta was just soo sooo soo much better. Yeah, really. Anywayyy, I was bored so we went to the Zara Kids' section. Ohmygod... I saw this red long coat for kids and I was like geez... too bad they don't have this one for the adult. And there were a lot of other things that made me go GAGA. Srsly :) I mean, how can you resist stuffs like these?
Today is actually eleventh day of holiday. So as you already know, I'm spending my holiday in Hong Kong. It's officially my fifth day here in HK. It's been great. But all I did was shopping all around the city. Okay, maybe not like that. So, it kinda made me feel super lazy to post anything here. Yes people, I am that lazy. Anyway, today I just went to H&M and Kimberley rd. I wanted to buy this one bag in H&M but I didn't. I realized that it didn't really worth the price. Yesterday was superrr crazy. I went to H&M for like a billion times and I kinda think that the security recognized my face. But then, I really realllyyy want to see my friends from junior high. I really miss them. Maybe I'll try to contact some of them later. Loveloveloveeee <3 Hmmmm the day before yesterday, my family and I went to Disneyland. It was funnnn :) Like, I really want to go there wohooo. And yes, I don't have anything else to write. Suckzz, I know =P Well, ttyl everyone. I hope you all do have a great holiday. Merry Christmas & Happy New Year.
So yeahh... it's 2 o'clock in morning and I'm still awake. Right now, I'm super tired and a bit sleepy but I don't want to go to sleep yet. WHY?? 'Cause dadadadada... lolzie. I'm in love with this late night chat, really. So my friend and I had been doing this late night chat for like three days now and it's just super fun, really. Hmmmm what else to write... Oh, so this holiday, I'm going to spend it in HK. Yes, funfunfun <3 style="font-style: italic;">go around a bit, do some shopping and probably sneaking around in my old school. Gosh... I really can't wait! It's only a day left and I'll be there wohoooooo :) Oh well, I'm going to continue my chat. TTYL!
Cry Me a River
